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Playing the piano. You know, when I was a kid, I had this little piano (I still have it now, it just does not have battery) and it works like the real thing! Really! Only, it’s mini.

When I got older, my aunt gave me a piano/organ but was not able to push through my dreams of learning a piano. I’m thinking, since, I really don’t want to go to work as soon as I graduate, I want to take up music lessons to learn piano. I’m still young and I can still do it, right?

I’ve been eyeing this yamaha dgx 640. Who knows? Maybe I can ask this as a gift on my graduation. I want to chill and do other things other than being on my laptop or mobile phone!

Why does time fly so fast? I want to protest! Really! Anyway, I can’t believe this but February is kicking in! Meaning, you got to prepare gifts for your love ones, you got to find a valentines gift for your husand or your boyfriend, or wife/girlfriend.

I don’t know what mine is, but I always want something different and memorable for him. I haven’t given him a proper gift for Christmas and New Year to tell you honestly, so right now, I’m gathering ideas!

It’s enough time until 14th, so don’t forget to give your special ones something – it needs not to be expensive, you just need to give them something with all your heart

Not the gloomy, so-panicky, self-conscious me. I need the careless, naive me who won’t care so much about things. Who doesn’t mind so much and who is ready to work hard to take on any challenge!

I guess I got tired, really too tired and cranky – of repetitive people, of clueless people who thinks they know everything then the patient me said “I am so tired of your freaking excuses, why can you not listen?”

But who cares. I don’t want to care for them anymore, that way, my life would not be so messed up. So what if your website’s down? It does not mean it’s the end of the world right? You oughtta have the responsibility to make back ups and everything, right?

So, what if you have that? I have so many things better than that! What if you’re rich? I am rich in knowledge and I don’t need to many fancy things just to get a life.

What if you hate me? Do you think I like you at all? What if you paid me and all? I know people who deserves right treatment, not those who treat me like I’m some kind of maid?

What if your project is delayed? Why should I care much? If you’re making me look for annoying logos that doesn’t really help me in learning anything other than how to get your eyes tired by staring at your computer 9 hours a day doing copy paste of images?

WHY SHOULD I CARE!

I have a life and I know mine is perfect, even without you all!

In reality, I am sick right now and I should be resting. But here I am, blogging anyways. I just felt like it. But will probably rest after this. It’s just that, I wanna rant lol.

It’s this annoying OJT. I pictured myself before to be enjoying and having lots of fun during this time of my life. On the contrary, it made me more sick of the idea of getting a job – convincing me to do stuffs on my own rather than some company.

Thing is, I hate what we’re told to do there, really. I feel like the most worthless of them all no matter how much I know, I know. My OJTmates get to participate in exciting projects while I get to what..browse for free? Whut, download? LOL really. I was so engrossed when he told me to study HTML5, XHTML and CSS3 now we’re made to search stuff again for their project. At least my other OJTmate gets to participate in the Android project he’s given. Me? I don’t know, it’s like just because I belong to a school not known I am treated like shit.

Just..seriously, this is freaking tiring and sick. Makes me even more sick than I am, plus that I am sick of hosting problems of other people who treat me like I’m some maid who they can ask favors to do all the time.

Like honestly? I want to runaway and hide from them all and just do what makes me happy..which, I don’t even know anymore..