RAINBOWDOLL★

Not the gloomy, so-panicky, self-conscious me. I need the careless, naive me who won’t care so much about things. Who doesn’t mind so much and who is ready to work hard to take on any challenge!

I guess I got tired, really too tired and cranky – of repetitive people, of clueless people who thinks they know everything then the patient me said “I am so tired of your freaking excuses, why can you not listen?”

But who cares. I don’t want to care for them anymore, that way, my life would not be so messed up. So what if your website’s down? It does not mean it’s the end of the world right? You oughtta have the responsibility to make back ups and everything, right?

So, what if you have that? I have so many things better than that! What if you’re rich? I am rich in knowledge and I don’t need to many fancy things just to get a life.

What if you hate me? Do you think I like you at all? What if you paid me and all? I know people who deserves right treatment, not those who treat me like I’m some kind of maid?

What if your project is delayed? Why should I care much? If you’re making me look for annoying logos that doesn’t really help me in learning anything other than how to get your eyes tired by staring at your computer 9 hours a day doing copy paste of images?

WHY SHOULD I CARE!

I have a life and I know mine is perfect, even without you all!

But fail to

• New Layout for Loving Pink. I’ve had an idea since July :S
• New Blog Posts, Scheduled posts
• New Link Exchanges :S
• Code code code

Blue.

Others make blue their favorite color because they say it’s “peaceful” and somehow relaxing. But the color blue is often used to be paired with “agony”, “anxeity” or in general – sadness. Are you familiar with the song “Bluer than Blue?”

Today I am blue because I am sad. I don’t know, I am sort of happy for some of the blessings but one blessing I just received a month ago is at stake. It’s my pet Paw. I was on the verge of making a blog dedicated for her and our other pets just days ago and now this. She’s having seizures plus she can’t move any of her muscles. They say she must have eaten poison for the rat in our kitchen, that I hope not.

There is little hope she’ll get better right now and it makes me bluer than blue is. But, whatever fate is and whatever God wants I submit to you God – I just want Paw to feel no pain anymore even if it would sadden me to see her go. I know, you now what’s best and I have faith in you.

1. We finally got in some club at school and I was ecstatic about it. But I realized I shouldn’t have attended that meeting they held because now my boyfriend is the President. Normally, girlfriend’s should be happy but I am not because I have reasons – yeah, I’m selfish like that. And I didn’t like the members. None.
2. We had tons of exams, I doubt if I’ll pass all of them because I just become blank when I’m in front of an exam paper.
3. I’m so tired of working but I have tons of them.
4. I still don’t have enough money to buy Nokia 5530.
5. I was late for Management System Information last Wednesday, we didn’t make it to be the first to finish the program to do – I doubt I’ll ever do great in the actual test, I barely study anymore because of work.
6. We’ll be reporting in Filipino soon.
7. Rizal Life SUCKS.
8. I’m blogging about how depressed I am.
9. I want to sell my domains that have prs but I don’t know to who or to where.
10. VB 2010 is being a pain in the @ss
11. I’M SO DEPRESSED, did I mention that?
12. Employers haven’t paid me. Nth time.
13. I don’t want to be this sad anymore.
14. …and I’m confused which blog is my personal blog because I have tons of blogs o_o
15. I have nothing to say.

Life is cruel like that…to me I guess. I hope things changes, like I hope something magical happens – like if it would rain but the raindrops would be marshmallows. I’d be happy.