RAINBOWDOLL★

Not the gloomy, so-panicky, self-conscious me. I need the careless, naive me who won’t care so much about things. Who doesn’t mind so much and who is ready to work hard to take on any challenge!

I guess I got tired, really too tired and cranky – of repetitive people, of clueless people who thinks they know everything then the patient me said “I am so tired of your freaking excuses, why can you not listen?”

But who cares. I don’t want to care for them anymore, that way, my life would not be so messed up. So what if your website’s down? It does not mean it’s the end of the world right? You oughtta have the responsibility to make back ups and everything, right?

So, what if you have that? I have so many things better than that! What if you’re rich? I am rich in knowledge and I don’t need to many fancy things just to get a life.

What if you hate me? Do you think I like you at all? What if you paid me and all? I know people who deserves right treatment, not those who treat me like I’m some kind of maid?

What if your project is delayed? Why should I care much? If you’re making me look for annoying logos that doesn’t really help me in learning anything other than how to get your eyes tired by staring at your computer 9 hours a day doing copy paste of images?

WHY SHOULD I CARE!

I have a life and I know mine is perfect, even without you all!

In reality, I am sick right now and I should be resting. But here I am, blogging anyways. I just felt like it. But will probably rest after this. It’s just that, I wanna rant lol.

It’s this annoying OJT. I pictured myself before to be enjoying and having lots of fun during this time of my life. On the contrary, it made me more sick of the idea of getting a job – convincing me to do stuffs on my own rather than some company.

Thing is, I hate what we’re told to do there, really. I feel like the most worthless of them all no matter how much I know, I know. My OJTmates get to participate in exciting projects while I get to what..browse for free? Whut, download? LOL really. I was so engrossed when he told me to study HTML5, XHTML and CSS3 now we’re made to search stuff again for their project. At least my other OJTmate gets to participate in the Android project he’s given. Me? I don’t know, it’s like just because I belong to a school not known I am treated like shit.

Just..seriously, this is freaking tiring and sick. Makes me even more sick than I am, plus that I am sick of hosting problems of other people who treat me like I’m some maid who they can ask favors to do all the time.

Like honestly? I want to runaway and hide from them all and just do what makes me happy..which, I don’t even know anymore..

New year is coming! I can’t believe it, it’s like things happened in a blink. I won’t be home until new year but I’ve got plans for the next year. And hopefully, be able to experience being on a SPA maybe? Haha, I saw these pentair pool tools and was fascinated on how I can use them if I will have them!

So yes that’s something I want to do. But you know I don’t think I’ll still be able to accomplish that, maybe when I get a job. Hopefully! Next year, I’ll be graduating..and that can be an awesome reward for me!

Christmas, yay! Finally today it’s Christmas. I haven’t been online on my laptop much since December 22nd. I wonder if I missed anything during those days? I hope not.

I was to engrossed in having fun with my dad and mom here in Thailand. I wish I brought a better bag though like that deuter backpack that my cousin told me about.

Well, can’t really pout much because of that, I have a lot of adventures ahead of me! Merry Christmas guys